Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Brief Testimony

I had a fairly "normal" childhood (at least I think so) and grew up involved in church but as a teenager I made the choice that I wanted to do things my way. Well, that didn't really work out...not that being a Christian and living my life for God is a walk in the park. Far from it. I struggle with major depression and borderline personality disorder. I've spent probably the better part of half my life feeling suicidal and even made some serious attempts. I also struggle with self-harm. Doctors and nurses tell me I shouldn't medically be alive because of what I've done, but I'm standing here today as a living testament to what God can do. Yes, I still struggle at times, but I know He is in control and He sees a bigger picture and has a plan for my life and He will bring good from my experiences. For that I thank Him. If I'm meant to struggle with this so that someday my life, my story, can help someone else, I will pick up my cross and carry it and I will praise Him. I may lose sight at times, I may get knocked down, but I am a child of God and I'm no longer ashamed to admit it.